I once inhaled freedom like a breath of fresh air
Carelessly taking for granted that it would always be there
Wasting time at the intersection of Reckless and Stupidity streets
Where poor decisions and thoughtless acts often meet
The era that I’m from, people in the streets spoke two languages, broken English and firearm
Spewing out metal words like copper jacks didn’t inflict deadly harm
Diagnosed by street shrinks with a Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde personality
To survive in my madness, I adopted I don’t-give-a-fuck ideology
My parents being proud of me imagine that I kept my distance so they couldn’t bear witness to my decline
My mind, in retrospect, I was on some dumbshit
Trapped like a fly in the mix
So sick, I didn’t think my behavior was all that rough
But then again, why did I find myself in the back of a police car handcuffed?
Charged with taking a life
Suddenly, awakened to reality of forfeiting my own life
What a life
The judge sentenced me to life 23 years old
No longer so bold
Glaring in the judge’s eyes so cold
Speaking of eyes
How do I look my mother in her teary eyes
Silently asking why
Her only son French kissing the world he once knew goodbye
How do I reconcile in my mind of how to do this time
The first prison cell they warehoused me in wasn’t fit for mice or men
A three-stained mattress upon a rusted cot broken toilet and no sink nothing to do but think I now inhale incarceration with each breath I take
Choking on confinement like carbon monoxide
My hands are up, but not in surrender, I can’t breathe A 40-foot prison wall encloses me, I can’t leave
Prison air suffocating me I can’t breathe
But I won’t give up, there’s too much to achieve
The idea that a person can’t be redeemed needs to be discredited
All I have is my life left, for a second chance, I’ll bet it
Time to rebuild this broken soul
Take responsibility for the poison I sowed
Journey on the trail of tears you cause
That terrible sin Human loss
Never again will I be labeled a “public enemy”
Or adopt an unflattering identity
Repentance is offered not because one got caught, or being sentenced to a heap of time
But rather feeling shame and the guilt of the sin one left behind
Rehabilitation, is it possible?
Can a person be renewed?
Yes, as long as you’re sincere, there’s goodness that can be pursued
Redemption is real
Even when you’re confined by concrete and steel I will never stop making amends
What you predict to be my ending, I shall begin “Lock ’em up and throw away the key,” the hardliners love to stick to this stance
But who wouldn’t give themselves a second chance?